Nobody noticed???

If you have been following my blog then you know how I kept the abuse I suffered silent.

I really struggled in my teen years with the normal teenge hormones and problems coupled with the weight of the abuse and secrets I carried.

This art work below is a painting I done when I was 14 years old.

At first glane you see a pretty blond girl in a lavish dress, but if you look closer notice the barbed wire around her. Notice the thorny vines working themselves up her, and the trapped women ghostly images surrounding.

This painting clearly tells a story, she has her eyes closed and is gripping her clothes close to her.

It's sad how something so clear wasn't seen and wasn't noticed. 

Newest Painting

Newest Painting

My art work

It

I'm feeling lost, I'm feeling out if control, I'm feeling like iv lost it and I don't even know what it is! 

But I am looking for it and, eventually, I will find it.

Down

I have felt so good for a long time now, but out of no where depression has crept up on me again..... I feel so flat, tearful, my energy is so low and my limbs just ache. The nightmeres are back with vengeance. I can't think of a single factor that has brought me back here and I really can't see my way out. Hopefully it will pass xx

Appeal

Next month there is a hearing at high court in London as the person who claimed to love me and be my father figure, but whom actuarally abused me, is appealing his sentence. This is despite the fact he pleaded guilty! I don't know what grounds the appeals done on but the fact it's for this far shows that 'they' are entertaining it! It's a day I work but I think I will go as when I get third hand information it tends to be wrong and I need to hear it...... I do feel angry tho as this is the person that stole my innocents, childhood and crushed my spirit for most of my life. Why has he got the right to appeal.....it adds insult to injury!